says F.R.I.E.N.D

Human is a very unique kind of creature where they will feel lonely and helpless when surround by people that they are not familiar with. They will feel anxious and kind of need some familiar faces around them to help out in case anything happens. Of course, not all are like that, some prefer to be out of the group, prefer to be alone, prefer to stay away from friends, and not joining friends' activities.

For me, I personally think that friends play an important role in my life. I need that them every minute and every second so that I can feel secure. I am that kind of man where I rather staying home if no friends accompany to have lunch outside or shopping at the mall. I feel safe and secure with them. Another example is that I chose to go to the same university with my friend rather than going to the one that I have longing for and it's kind of stupid right? Luckily I survived through the 4 years program and graduated =)

Also, I feel that I am lucky as my friends never betray me or leave me when something happens. I normally don't open up my heart if I wasn't sure that we can really be friend. Frank speaking, I only have a few best friends and I am very glad that they have became parts of my life. I usually rely on them quite a lot and became very dependent. I guess it's not really a good thing to keep relying on them!

I have a few best friends or buddy I would say where we are friends for more than 20years and our friendship is still growing now. We went to the same primary and secondary school and some even the same uni. We went through a lot of stuffs together like making fun of the girls, making fun of the teachers, skipping classes together, get punished by the teachers together, staying up late to do some crazy stuffs, did many impromptu road trips together , and those are very good old days memories that  i will remember for the rest of my life.

When i was in degree year, I have another group of friends that we will always be together for 24/7. Initially, we are just assignment groupmates and that's how our friendship grow bigger. We also did some crazy stuffs together throughout the uni years. I can't survive or graduated without them. I really need to thanks them for all the sweet memories and help throughout the years. 4 of us sticking up together everyday expect for semester for three years. Oh gosh, stayed under same roof, be in the same assignment group for 3years, lunch and dinner together, went to class together, went for grocery shopping together, laughed and cried together, spontaneous trips to nearest town together, and so on. We also had a lot of good memories together.

Here go my post for friend. I can't really survive without all of you.

Taken during last gathering with uni friends

another one is missing :(

about my job - ABA therapist

Last post was about my dream to this big city and now I shall blog about my current job which is a therapist who works with children with special needs. Working with children is really out of my expectation or what I have always wanted to as before going in to this field, I HATE children a lotsss. I feel like slapping them, making them cry, teasing them, and so, and so... Everything changed after my internship where I started to feel that I can do more to help them and also their families. For your record, I interned at EAP - Early Autism Project Malaysia Sdn Bhd - It's a place where parents find hope for the children with autism disorder. 

Working with children do need patience, passionate, big love, and positive attitude. Sometimes the child is smart enough to test whether you are a patience person or not by throwing tantrums and not compliant to you. I am doing a 3 hours therapeutic session on 1-to-1 basis with the child. It means that you have to be fun and smart enough to keep the child happy and engaged to you. Creative is part of that too where you have to instantly think of what is fun and how to make the session more effectively as the parents have spent lots of money on their precious children, hoping that this program could change their life to a better one.

I have worked with a few children in this field. Most of them are adorable and smart in their ways. They will use all sort of actions to get your attention when you are not attend to them. The other characteristic of children is that they will easily get jealous/envy when you are playing with the other kid and not attend to them. They want to feel lovable all the time. Sometimes, I was thinking what I have learned from the program is helpful for me being a parent in future or not. Certainly, I will over-pamper my children and fulfill every single wishlist of theirs. I think every parent will have the same thought as mine. =)

That's the reinforcer that i used to keep the children happy and motivated

something new in 2013

It's April now and we almost past a quarter of 2013. I am a village boy who came to this city to look for my dream and destination in life. I grew up in a small town in Kelantan and has fantasied how good it will be if I have a life in city that never sleeps - KL. The main and only reason for that kind of fantasy is that I do not want to live under my parents' supervision or I would say I want to be a rebellion boy where I can go to club every night, no curfews, sleep with whoever girls that I wanted to, and etc etc etc... Right after I finished my degree, I started to look for jobs in KL and my mum was against me as she hopes and wish that I could help out the business of my family. After several times of begging, she finally let go of me and in return, I have to go back and help her out after few years.

Life in KL is more or less like what I have been expected. Most of it were sweet but there is still a minor bitter and sad part. Coming to this city alone means I have to start everything fresh, I have to look for a place to stay, I have to look after myself, I have to make new friends, I have to pay and responsible for all the expenses, I have to start planning for the future, and so, and so, and so... Been here for almost half a year, i learnt quite a few of things - independent, responsible, patience..... It's not easy to always on my own and luckily i still have friends to help me out when I am down or lost.

The main reason why i wanted to start blogging again is that I want to share every bit and pieces of me and through blogging, it actually can help me to release all sorts of tension in life. And, here you go, my first post in 2013.